It's an interesting concept to explore. That self talk we do after we have reacted to a situation is where so many of the lessons really live. Think about it.
But not now.
Because as I sat down to write about this I realized that I really didn't want to write about this. I kinda wanted to write about lighter things. Like my walk this morning with my dog (what a surprise) and the personal satisfaction I am feeling having drafted new By-Laws for the theater that I am the Board Chair of (I love writing documents like this).
I want to write about the anthology that I am creating with a becoming-a-new-friend woman that I met over social media. It is book about the Thomas Fire that circled our valley - we are a valley surrounded by fire - and then swept north becoming that biggest wildfire in California history. This book is a collection of photographs, artwork, poetry and prose from our Ojai community. We are still in the submission phase and are receiving such amazing images and writings. This book is going to be beautiful as it honors the loss and grief and strength and possibility of our community.
So this is really cool.
I want to talk about the fact that I have had to restart my computer like three times in the space of writing this writing because it is old and slow and freezes up and I need to buy a new one but this stresses me out. All my stuff is on here. All my documents and passwords and pictures and stuff. And I know, I know, I know all about backing things up and I am doing this. I have a OneDrive account with everything in it. I have Carbonite on my computer which backs up things automatically. And I also email myself the things that are really important (yes, the old fashion back-up system). But still, technology stresses me out. Like A LOT! And so this is tough.
But the new computer will be fast and speedy and I can write my writings and draft my documents and sign into sites and not have to wait like four minutes for something to load.
So this is really cool, too.
And finally, I want to talk about where this picture above was taken. Take a guess. You'll never get it!